A normal days work...

I've been back in the UK for almost 2 weeks now. HOW can I still be tired.
I think that for the last year, I've had hardly any time to relax let alone think, and now when I do finally have some time away from it all I can't handle it! It's been weird.
I have been training another person to do my job for the last 5 months so that we can start rotating races and getting things done in the factory while the other person is out taking the stress! This has now taken effect which means for the last week and a half I have been working at MTC rather than across the world somewhere. It's been strange being back here. I supported Canada from the factory, time shifting so that I am at work the same time that the guys are at the circuit. This hasn't helped with my body clock at all! It's been quite difficult to be able to hear everything that's going on in the garage on the radio in Canada and having to sit and be limited in what I can do to help. It's also been interesting to see what goes on back at the factory while we are at the track. Mission Control is an interesting place. More goes on in here than I thought.
So this week, I'm back on normal hours. well, kind of! A few days off here and there to try to get rid of the accruing holidays I have! It's been raining alllllll week but today, on my day off it's nice and sunny! Woohoo!

I've been thinking about posting a new blog post for a while but I've been a bit distracted by something, and I didn't want to end up writing pages and pages on the distraction so had to wait until I could get that out of my head and think of something normal to write! It's a good distraction, but something I need to work out because right now, it's taking up a lot of my head space and I need to work out what it really is. I guess I know what it is and it's something I've never had to deal with before... I just need to get things straight, I'm just not sure how to go about doing that yet.

Having time away from the constant pressure of being away makes you think in a totally different way. I've found my thoughts drifting and realise my irrationalness a lot more. The good thing is, I now have time to realise it and to change it. Being in an environment where everything has to be done yesterday and then coming back to normality where everything is being done tommorow, messes with your head. I guess it's a case of putting things into perspective and prioritising your thoughts. I have to keep readjusting where my head is.
It's going to be quite nice to be able to wake up at normal times and drive into work and do a normal day in an office. Only so long until I get twitchy feet again though and need to get out and about!

I've joined the gym at work again and intend on getting my underused bike out and using this time to get fit again. Since being back I keep eating cakes and soon will end up needing 2 seats on a plane instead of 1. hahaha

Also, I have weekends at home, so I can go exploring again! I've tried to sort my camera lens out so that I can go and take pictures without black blobs all over my pictures... hopefully! I've been searching for random things to do while I can and have found quite a lot of interesting things. Being away from the UK makes me appreciate my surroundings when I'm home and look around locally to see what I can do instead of jumping on a plane to get to a beach. Although Iceland is still in my head and the impatient part of me wants to get there NOW! But I have other reasons for that too... I want to fulfill an ongoing image, if it can be called that, which is in my head and my heart.

Bring on the weekend!

The moment one gives close attention to any thing, even a blade of grass it becomes a mysterious, awesome, indescribably magnificent world in itself.

  

~Henry Miller

Travelling without moving

I think I should have been born a traveller... I can't stop thinking about where to go next... and I've only just got back from holiday...
I have 3 races off now.. in the sense that I am not flying out to any countries, but I will be working at the factory time shifted to wherever the rest of my team are. My time shifting starts tomorrow, which still means I can't catch up with my friends now that I'm back as by the time they finish work, I'll be going into work!
Therefore I'll spend my free time dreaming about where I'm going to next... still have Iceland in my head. I wonder when the best time to go there is.

So, I've just been to Spain for a week. Cheap and cheerful holiday. I have never been on a holiday before where I just sit around in the sun allllllllll day and jump into the pool when I get too hot... then back on the sunbed to chill (or, burn) some more and that's about it. I think being in a job where you are constantly on the move, teaches you to be able to sit down and do nothing when you can! So I was quite happy doing that this week. But I did learn something... that I can't go on a cheap and cheerful holiday again. I need to find remote places which aren't taken over by English people, where there is some culture and different foods to try. Places that you can see amazing sights that you would never be able to see in England and experience things that you can't experience at home, as well as having time to sit on a beautiful (quiet!) beach and take in the scenery and go through your thoughts without the shouts of "Waterpolo at 10:30, Come and join us"  and drunk people in the night banging on hotel room doors shouting "let me innnnn" disturbing the peace.

The rest of my team have now got on a plane and are in Canada. It feels kind of weird to not be with them. But I'm glad in a way that I get some time to sort my stuff out back here and do what I need to back at the factory for the first time since I started my job a year ago. Also catch up on new faces at MTC and catch up with people I used to work with, who I haven't spoken to for months! My next GP is Germany, so am looking forward to a bit of normality (if there is any, in this job!) before I fly out again. Hopefully I'll get a bit of time to catch up with friends too! I've decided not to go to Silverstone this year as I work in the environment every week. I don't really feel like going camping now to go and watch our car go around the circuit from the middle of a field behind a wire fence. If I'm not covering that race from MTC I might try to get away on a long weekend somewhere.. :)

My mind is constantly travelling lately. In all senses of the word!  I'm all over the place! Lots going on in my head with work and life in general. Hopefully in the next few weeks I can straighten things out while I have time to and understand what's going on in my roller coaster world right now! :) It's allll good though. All good things which are happening, I think... just can't get my head around something.. but I will :)

Now back to chilling and catching up on Desperate Housewives episodes :)
Blackberry is charged ready for any calls from Canada and am ready to go back to work to get back on it tommorow!

You don't have to promise me the moon or stars . . . just promise that you will stand under them with me.

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